Posted by Joslynn on May 13, 2005, at 15:19:26
In reply to you can all hate me now.**another trigger**, posted by B2chica on May 9, 2005, at 10:59:49
Why would anyone hate you?
He was the perpetrator. You were the child. Even if you escaped being a victim at the particular moment, and someone else was a victim, that doesn't switch you into the role of the perpetrator. That puts you in the role of survivor.
A child is not the policeman of the world and adults have let down children terribly if think they have to be. It sounds like adults dropped the ball in your life, and that is not your fault.
Even if you want to, you canot switch things around so that you can exchange your pain for her escape. It sounds like you have enough pain of your own to deal with, without taking on hers too. But maybe you are transferring, wishing an adult had intervened with the other times. So now you are thinking, maybe the adult you would like to somehow cosmically rearrange things.
But the child you did nothing wrong.
poster:Joslynn
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