Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 23:26:23
In reply to Re: it amazes me..... » Dinah, posted by shrinking violet on May 3, 2005, at 21:20:48
And I'm not asking of you anything I haven't asked of myself.
I've done my darndest to be safe.
There are countless people that know if I'm terminated it'd be wise to force me into the hospital.
If they aren't around, and I'm in enough control, I will get myself to the nearest safe place and insist on hospitalization.
It's that period of time where he first tells me that I'm in most danger. I'm not likely to be in a rational frame of mind, reeling with pain of losing someone I care about, despair at losing my safe place, and mind boggling vein bursting rage at being betrayed and abandoned by someone I trusted. If my emotional side is in control, that is the moment I'd act to end my pain and act out my unbelievable rage at my therapist by hurting him as much as I could in the process.
He's the only one who could help me at that time, because other than me, he'd be the only one who'd know what happened.
Yet even in that, when I knew that if this scenario ever took place, he'd be the one who'd be doing it, even then, I told him enough for him to help me. If he remembers.
I've done everything I can to help myself
Will you please do everything you can do?
poster:Dinah
thread:488013
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