Posted by Dinah on May 3, 2005, at 20:19:45
In reply to it amazes me..... » Dinah, posted by shrinking violet on May 3, 2005, at 19:00:15
I feel like a dreadful example. :( I'm older and am supposed to be wiser.
There's no termination in the near future. He jokes about doddering in and sitting opposite me, and he'll be completely senile and I'll never notice the difference.
The plan was made years and years ago, and it took a fair amount of courage and even more ingenuity to tell him in such a way that I didn't make it an ultimatum. He didn't take it as an ultimatum or a manipulation. We just talked about the practicalities of it a bit - he needs a family member to commit me, it's harder now that he's not in the clinic, stuff like that. He didn't make a big deal of it other than that, and he never has.
Maybe he thinks I'd never follow through because I'd know how much it would hurt my son.
Maybe he's right.
I just fear that I wouldn't be in a very good place to make good choices for myself, and that I probably shouldn't be left alone because I'm not always a rational thoughtful human being.
On the other hand, I did tell him because he is still my therapist. And I still think you should tell your therapist as long as she is your therapist.
(Does that redeem me as a positive role model any?)