Posted by shrinking violet on April 30, 2005, at 11:24:45
In reply to Re: .....never known pain like this......(trigger?) » shrinking violet, posted by frida on April 29, 2005, at 20:22:11
>> I don't know exactly the details of why you have to leave, or terminate T..is there any way that you can continue...? or work something out with her so you don't have to leave her??
--Hi Friday, thank you and welcome.
No, unfortuntely there isn't. She works at the Uni where I'm a grad student, and since I'm close to graduation, I can't see her anymore. Although, I am taking one course this summer, and continuing my work at the library, so I will be on campus and technically a student, but, she seems to want to terminate now, so I didn't ask why I couldn't finsh the summer with her....I'd be too devastated if she said no.
>> (((((Shrinking violet)))))
>
> I can only magine the depth of your pain..the possibility of losing my T makes me feel so much pain and hopelessness. I wish I could take away those feelings for you...--Thank you. I wish you could too.
>> Your post breaks my heart. Can you email her, reach out to her still? Maybe you and her can work something out? Does she know how you're feeling..?
--I don't know,I wish there were. I know she knows I'm upset, but I don't think she knows how hard this is, about the drug0-taking to keep myself asleep/numb, about the suicidal plans/thoughts, about the intense fear of being left alone. But, it sems stupid and unfair to dump all of this on her now. I want to email her so badly, but....I won't.
> I'm so sorry for your pain..I'm sending you lots of support....
> forgive me if you've shared about all of this already, it just breaks my heart to see you in so much pain
>
> You are not alone..
> love,
> Frida--Thank you hon, your words mean a lot. You take care too.
SV
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