Posted by shrinking violet on April 14, 2005, at 20:04:44
In reply to how did it go?, posted by crazymaisie on April 13, 2005, at 22:28:48
Thanks for caring enough to ask. I appreciate it.
I'm not sure I can post here for a while, if ever, at least not about how I'm feeling/thinking right now...
....an online friend (lives in another state) was concerned about me being suicidal, so she e-mailed my T and told her, without telling me. I found out Tue when I went to my appt.
My friend knows I post here, so....I don't think I can say much, in case she's reading.
To put it shortly:
I saw my T. I sobbed with her so hard. She held me. She cried too. I have two more appts with her before we officially end. I told her what I needed to in order for her not to worry enough to throw me IP.
....I can't even say or allude to things I want to or need to. Part of me needs to get it all out, but, the other part wants to protect it and keep it secret. Maybe it's better I keep it all to myself anyway...maybe it's selfish to dump this kind of thing on other people, then they feel they need to act on it, when you don't want them to.
So, that's the update.
Thanks everyone....
*closes curtain*
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