Posted by pinkeye on March 28, 2005, at 22:53:35
In reply to Re: Not at all attached to my new T, posted by pegasus on March 28, 2005, at 21:28:29
That makes a lot of sense.. Thanks pegasus. But I know I am still not at peace with having to leave my old T - though it was a pretty smooth and amicable termination. I am still feeling very rough and somehow abandoned and somehow lost etc etc.. and sometimes very depressed.. I try to go on and do other useful things. It is not always so easy.. like today. Today is a rough day.
And I think that has a huge role to play with my not getting attached to my new T. I think it is much safer this way.. And I genuinely think she is not the type to care about her patients. Knowing that, if I start getting attached to her and think she cares about me, I will be making a big mistake. Anyway, caring has to come from within you.. I can't make myself get attached to her. And she can't either. If that is the way it has to be, so be it. Atleast I am much safer.
I have become very extremely weary of all this involvement in therapy. And I feel like saying
"No thanks I don't want it" even if my new T tries to extend herself. She sometimes tells me I am very smart and all.. but I just dismiss her remarks. and don't take anything personally.
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