Posted by Susan47 on February 16, 2005, at 15:46:56
In reply to Re: Okay, but I'm still so ANGRY » Susan47, posted by pinkeye on February 16, 2005, at 14:49:35
if he had the courage to be honest. He didn't trust me from the beginning, he knew I was very vulnerable, and he didn't know how to tell me that he probably shouldn't be trying to help me. So what he did was infinitely worse. And I don't blame him or fault him for being human, as a matter of fact I spent MONTHS understanding his mistake. But that fact that he won't admit he made one is very very ugly to me, and the fact that I spent the energy loving someone, really feeling love as closely as any human being can to any other human being, I loved that man, it was my super-human effort to forgive him. But I couldn't help the fact that he's got this ugly quality of hubris and he was willing, he DID sacrifice me to that.
He did. He sacrificed me.