Posted by B2Chica on January 10, 2005, at 13:32:28
In reply to Re: T changed his mind??!!, posted by gardenergirl on January 8, 2005, at 14:51:46
> Is there anyone in your area who specializes in clients with problems such as yours?
that one was one of about 3....(D@mn IT!) man i hope he comes back.
> Also, I think it stinks if your pdoc gives you the impression that because you are functioning better than his worse off clients, you don't need to have all your symptoms treated. However, I think there are times when it is more helpful to keep a lid on the emotional stuff and the unconscious and focus on support rather than uncovering. Some people, and I don't know if you are one of them, do better to NOT uncover yucky stuff, and rather to learn to contain it.I've REALLY been thinking about this ALOT lately. the only thing that's really pushing me to get it out are the nightmares/hyg/hypompic episodes have gradually been getting worse...more frequent, also still have some things 'trigger' me to memories, some i have forgotten. and...
the logical side of me says- get it out then you'll be done and can move on...see my biggest fear is, well i want children and i don't want to screw them up because of things i remember- don't want to be over protective, overbearing and god help me i don't want to be like my mother with her mood swings...
i guess there's one of my mysteries, why it's probably hard for me in therapy, i learned early NOT to show emotion...ANY cuz no matter what reaction i had it wasn't "RIGHT" and got punished for it...
i don't want that for my children, but i want them. and i'm tired of putting it off.ON the other hand, i have done it so long that i'm afraid of changing how i react, respond to emotions, how i 'handle' them. And if i get someone who's no good??? it could be worse.
So i guess fear is a big part of it here.wow, thanks for letting me talk all that out....I'm not as fed up as i thought. i think i AM going to try to call a few new ones, Female even (HUGE breakthrough for me there). maybe cover the sexual stuff with female and when/if other T comes back he can help me manage thoughts/depression/emotions (he REALLY understood me there.)
Thank you so much gg!
wow, you just witnessed a mini breakthrough.
i wish i could come see you...
THANK YOU.
b2c.
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