Posted by rainbowbrite on January 9, 2005, at 21:57:07
In reply to Re: i want to die. » rainbowbrite, posted by lonelygal on January 9, 2005, at 21:12:19
I really hate to see people suffer and I know the feeling of having no hope and feeling there is no other way out.
But things really do change eventually, i never believed it but they really do. it isn't always going to be like this. This is something that took me a long time to learn and i hope you can find a little hope from it. i used to get so angry with people for saying that to me. they probably didn't know it to be true but rather it sounded good, but i know it can be true! Take advantage of the help that is available, it can be very useful. It may not be a right fit right away but at some point something/someone will click and it makes all the difference in the world. You really need to reach out, even if it is going to a hospital which I know is an awful feeling to have to givein to but if it will help you, do it.
You also btw have every right in the world to be angry. It doesn't matter what the problem is, they are your feelings and you are allowed to feel them and experience them.
and about being a mean person- we all can be mean, but i highly doubt you are a mean person. even if you are, it still gives you the right to hold your feelings and not be judjed by you or anyone else.
I am sorry i kindof got sied tracked but i think it is important for you to know that the most important person for you to be concerned with right now is YOU. in fact it should be a priority in general to take care of your self. I still struggle with what i wrote but when you start caring for yourself it changes many things. do something nice for yourself tonight, and if you are feeling unsafe go to a hospital- even just to talk to soemone.
Im thinking of you and sending you a big hug. i hope this was helpful.
take care
rain
poster:rainbowbrite
thread:439892
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20050105/msgs/439927.html