Posted by Shortelise on January 5, 2005, at 17:09:23
In reply to Re: Therapy Intruding on Life » Miss Honeychurch, posted by mair on January 5, 2005, at 15:37:25
Oh, yeah.
I know this.
The first year I didn't give it a lot of thought, and certainly didn't feel any emotional attachment to my shrink.
Then, almost all of a sudden, there is was. I longed for him, not in a romantic way, but in a way for which I didn't seem to have a vocabulary with which to express it.
The filtering thing is so strong for me, but part of it has become that I am aware of what I am filtering out, and why. I haven't talked with him about this, and I don't think I need to. It's another one of the changes, the move toward consciousness that I have been able to make.
There were times I felt so exposed, times I distrusted my T, and it took a lot of caca to get through it. I'm still not finished. There are still lots of times when I see something and part of seeing it is thinking of telling my T about it, of how I would tell him.
I find it so so helpful to keep a journal. I write in it as soon as I can after leaving his office, and can refer back to it. I write down the things I think about, things I see, things I feel between sessions. I have - on very rare occasion - made a note during a session. I never kept a journal before therapy, probably will stop when I'm done.
ShortE
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