Posted by mair on January 5, 2005, at 12:46:11
One of the ways that I've been able to function is that I rarely think about my therapist and therapy, and certainly not issues raised in therapy, between sessions. In fact I have a tendency to forget what was talked about from one session to the next. The main downsides are that this habit probably contributes to the disconnection I often feel with my therapist and the therapeutic process, and that it's harder for me to apply the insights I gain in therapy to my life. The principal upside is that while depressive feelings may (and very frequently do) hamper my ability to function well at work, therapy does not, except perhaps during the morning of a day when I'm going to have a session which I'm dreading.
I think this is changing. I've been in a down phase for awhile and definitely distracted at work. What's more striking to me is that I find myself thinking about my therapy sessions and my therapist a lot - to the point of distraction. I think part of this is that I've been feeling my T's support in a palpable way and while I'm grateful for it, I also am feeling pretty emotionally vulnerable. I don't know if this is a function of feeling a little depressed and isolated, or craving the support I've been getting from her. I think she's just getting through to me more than has been the case in the past, but it's making me feel exposed, not necessarily safer.
Does this make sense to anyone?
Mair
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