Posted by Fallen4MyT on January 4, 2005, at 23:07:09
In reply to Re: Progess in your life..see any from last year? this, posted by Klokka on January 4, 2005, at 19:25:07
Wow you sound like you have made more progress than not. The anxiety lessening must be a God send and your ability to function sounds much better from your post. The loss of a boyfriend and a T pending to moving and age...could that maybe be why you trust less and are feeling out of sorts in ways due to impending abadonment issues..I know for myself its MUCH easier to deal with something once its happens rather than waiting for it....Could that maybe be a part of it? I feel for you cause thats a lot on you..Yet YOU have made a lot of progress and that always feels good. We ..as in none of us....can have total progress across the board..I wish we could :) Keep it up you should be proud :)
> I've seen a bit of progress over the last year, but also a few things which have worsened; though the latter I can trace back to something which happened a few months ago. I can cope much better with anxiety; I had to let a bunch of assignments go last year because I just couldn't handle it, but now I can force myself to get it over with. I understand better why I do and feel certain things, and can usually put that to good use. Most recently, I've been able to entertain the thought that maybe I'm not as absolutely horrible as I've thought myself to be... and my pdoc may have a point when he says that I believe those negative thoughts a little bit less, now.
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> For a while, trust came more naturally to me, but some events in my life changed that. Now it's hard even to talk to my pdoc honestly without either suspecting he'll turn on me someday or being overwhelmed by the knowledge that I'll lose him. Things have been similar with others in my life. I'd like to think that it'll resolve itself, but it's been four months and it's only worsened. I imagine that having my boyfriend move across the country and losing my pdoc (too old to continue going to the clinic) won't help, but both of those will happen in the summer so hopefully things will have improved by then.
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