Posted by ghost on December 26, 2004, at 17:58:44
i had no goals for therapy. there's no one issue (or series of issues) in my life that i need to deal with or get over. i started therapy because my pdoc said it would be good. i'm bipolar. my problems (most of them) are chemical. not psychological.
(or so i thought.)
the T wants me to tell her what my goals are for therapy. but i have none. i make some up, i stretch things a bit. i say i'd like to improve my relationships with people (this is true-- i'm always an acquaintence, never a friend). is this good enough?
it seems like we always come up with something to talk about for an hour, even if the first 20 minutes are spent in uncomfortable chitchat and silence. i hate that silence. the pdoc promised she wasn't a silent sort, but she is. i need someone who talks. (more specifically: asks questions.) she's not bad. i think after breaking out the "sand tray" for me to play with she's learned i'm more hands-on than i am talky out of the blue.
i envy that person who used to walk into therapy with an agenda (who was that?)... i walk in blank. it's like even the problems i had that day are gone, i make it a job, something i have to do, and consequently, i have nothing to really say, even though the more i think about it, the more i know i probably should keep going.
does that make sense? how do you do it?
poster:ghost
thread:434398
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041218/msgs/434398.html