Posted by Poet on December 22, 2004, at 19:09:43
In reply to Re: just so ya know, posted by B2Chica on December 21, 2004, at 19:13:48
B2Chica,
I had a plan and a date set. I still have the plan (but right now don't feel the urge to act on it, so nobody worry, please.)
At the time my therapist compared my depression to an open wound. *You refuse to put salve on it, to try to heal it, instead you pick at it.* So I understand how depression is SI, and its wounds hurt deeply.
I refused to go inpatient and finally agreed to sign something saying I wouldn't *hurt* myself on a week to week basis until the *date.*
I refused to go inpatient and under threat of her calling 911 agreed to see a pdoc. New AD is working, so it's good that I saw pdoc. I forgave T for the 911 threats, too as I now know it was for my own good.
Maybe you can call your pdoc and tell him that you are in a bad state and agree to a verbal *no harm* agreement? And make an appointment to talk about why you set a date and if ADs might help you get through this rough patch?
Everybody here cares about you. If you can post, please let us know how you are doing? Okay?
Take care and if you can't reach pdoc before his vacation. Stick to your promise (to us and yourself) not to do anything before that date and call him when he's back. Okay?
Poet
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