Posted by memoryleaves on December 13, 2004, at 11:27:36
In reply to Re: Is this even possible? **Triggers**, posted by Daisym on December 10, 2004, at 20:20:07
Hi Daisy,
Thank you so much for your words. Are you sure you're not a therapist yourself? If not, I think you'd make a great one.
I took your advice and called my T. I had to leave a message and am awaiting a call back. This gives me something to hang onto and have hope for, but I have to admit, I will definitely be devastated if he tells me he cannot see me one more time. I cannot face my new life in the new/old city and all the people I am going back to unless I am somewhat stabilized. I just can't. They won't allow me to mourn. They will make me get a job straightaway and push push push. It's too much pressure if you're not ready. And sobbing on the kitchen floor one minute and staring off into space the next does not make me fit for the life they expect of me. I threw my dinner at the wall yesterday. I couldn't understand why I would eat.
So you see, I need one more EMDR session if I even want to entertain the idea of celebrating Christmas and moving. I need to work through things with the loss of my father, with my T. I know I can't expect miracles from one session, or ever really, but I know from experience that I can expect some sort of containment to carry me for a little while at least. I need to at least be able to function on some level.
Thanks again for helping me sort this out. Also your support and validation meant a lot.
Memory
Ahh and thanks for your little note that people don't post much on Friday's to make sure I didn't feel ignored. That was very sweet and thoughtful. Gosh you really would make a wonderful T:)
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