Posted by Pfinstegg on November 20, 2004, at 21:43:47
In reply to Pfinstegg? Things OK?, posted by daisym on November 20, 2004, at 19:43:46
Hi Daisy.. I really appreciate your thinking of me! I've been following PB every few days, at least, but have been very occupied with preparations for my son's wedding to his adorable girlfriend (it's not until next October, but the big decisions about it need to be made now- the church, where the reception will be etc.)
In addition, analysis goes on - such an incredibly intense experience, but also a changing one. I guess the big change for me is that, after nearly two years of struggle, I am feeling securely attached to my analyst. I can scarcely believe this happened! All the *parts* seem to be attached in varying degrees- some happily and calmly so, some passionately so, some more uneasily, but it's as though he's there* inside me to a much greater degree- and this has helped me to feel a lot better. I also can more easily dare to really trust him- just to let go and let the parts speak freely. It's such a relief not to be constantly barraged by feelings of loneliness, terror, shame, guilt, secrecy- not to mention terrible depression and constant, exhausting anxiety. This didn't begin to happen until I was going FIVE days a week! My analyst feels very badly about how expensive and time-consuming this is, but, I think out of his 30 years of experience, he really knows what it takes to treat abuse successfully. He often mentions what a huge problem this is in society, and how hard (or impossible) it is for the majority of people to get effective treatment.
He is starting to write a book about the treatment of childhood abuse, dissociation, and ego state disorders. I think it will be a good one! I'm sure I'll still be here at Babble when it's published, so I can let you know the title!
What is happening with special, warm-hearted you and your so special therapist these days?
poster:Pfinstegg
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