Posted by rockymtnhi on November 20, 2004, at 19:48:57
I had been working on CSA and felt like I was freaking out both in session and out. I went in one day and announced to my T that I needed to be able to call him once during the week. He became irritated. He had only become irritated one other time in the 2 years that I had been seeing him (so I know from that experience when I have crossed the line). I know that he does not like to do tx over the phone but I wasn't asking for that. I just wanted to tell someone that I was freaking out. But I immediately backed off. During the next session, I asked him what his policy was around phone calls. He said I could call anytime and I had misunderstood. I was irritated that he was putting this back on me when I could visibly see that he did not like the phone call idea. Real or transference?
When I have talked about CSA, I have always thought that he was disinterested or did not believe me. He says it is transference but I still cannot get past the idea that HE does not believe me.
I just hate not knowing when what I am experiencing is real or not.
And since I am on my soapbox, I really hate wanting my T to understand what I am going through.
poster:rockymtnhi
thread:418419
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20041113/msgs/418419.html