Posted by gardenergirl on September 6, 2004, at 21:00:02
In reply to Re: Update on pdoc situation (longish, sorry) » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on September 6, 2004, at 10:11:35
> I'm glad it went so much better this time! And good for you for speaking up. :)
Thanks.>
> It sounds like it's been a heck of a month. And you've been so stoic! I'd have been whining like heck. So you're going to stay where you are, meds-wise? Nardil at the dose you started?I don't feel like I was stoic, but I suppose I did my whining in private or via IM and email. It did occur to me later..why didn't I post on this? But when I get depressed, I post less and less. Still read, but post less. Part of the ostrich withdrawal, I guess. Yeah, I'm at the moderate dose of Nardil I was at when I first saw her. Makes the whole month kind of aggravating. If I had never gone to see her, I'd have been fine! :)
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> It wouldn't surprise me at all if there were some connection between the time you called her and your therapist's absence.Yeah, my T was almost amused by this..."You mean you called her the SAME DAY we had our last session? RIGHT AFTER? And you say there is no connection?" Yeah yeah yeah.... I honestly never thought about it. Just was pleased with myself for finally getting the nerve to get around to it.
> Perhaps she it is her experience that first time clients need a "hook" to keep them tuned in and coming back. Shock therapy. And when you let her know it wasn't helpful, she changed tack. That way she wouldn't be a pod person either time. (And as you told her, to some extent it worked.)Could be. Or maybe she was just struck by all the ways I do act more dependent. We hadn't gotten into the why's as much--the I come by it honestly thing. I know it really helps me to view it from that aspect so I don't get so self-critical. Perhaps she needs that for empathy, too? But maybe it's a hook. But wow, dangerous one. You don't want to drive them away! :)
And I really don't think she's a pod person. Funny though, she had just broken her toe that morning. Maybe she was just in pain....
Thanks for input.
gg
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