Posted by 10derHeart on July 4, 2004, at 23:00:40
In reply to Re: New Poster/Help -Awfully Painful Termination (long » 10derHeart, posted by Dinah on June 20, 2004, at 8:37:48
First, especially for rs, TMP, GG, Klokka, rockymtnhi and pegasus: Pplz, plz, accept my apology for not personally answering each of you back in June. I only managed to write to Dinah and Aphrodite before I shut down. I’ve had to do whatever it takes to keep my mood stable enough to work , etc., and that meant not writing about the sorrow of my T. leaving. I am in the military, so no option of staying home and so forth - I have to function at some level...Just threw myself into work, sleep, etc. I chose to let that override my instinct to always connect with anyone who reaches out to me so kindly as you all did. Doesn’t mean it feels right (it doesn’t), but I’m trusting you all can try to understand…just the reminder of writing about it was too much many days, so I just couldn’t.
For all,...it’s now been 3 days since last session wih T., and I badly want to write all the details of that day, but I can’t quite yet. It’s just too hard. Please bear with me as I process this alone for a while longer. It’s a roller coaster, and w/my situation, (he’s still “around” (cleaning out office, etc), and not moving out of town for a few weeks, so I’m not 100% sure we won’t speak one more time by phone or email…it’s so confusing right now) I didn’t even cry until afterwards, and THAT is causing me anguish wondering if he understood that…it was…unreal. I’m hanging in there, reading your posts and hoping to offer a shoulder and some help instead of just my own pain. You are all wonderful – 10derHeart
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