Posted by rs on June 20, 2004, at 10:21:05
In reply to Re: New Poster/Help -Awfully Painful Termination (long » 10derHeart, posted by Dinah on June 20, 2004, at 8:37:48
I am so sorry that you are going to face the lost. I will share with you being there at one time. First it does hurt. The pain, the feeling of abandoment etc. It hurts much. I was seeing a therapist for 6yrs once a week. Three years ago he moved across the country. I had a month to prepare. Cried so so much. It was like he was dead. I could not have any contact with him what so ever. From this day I still remember that last visit. End of the world. Anyway could not go to another T. Finally after about 2yrs hit bottom and needing much help. Saw this t and hated him. Well few months later went back. Still had issues. Stuck with him. Today see him twice a week and he is the best. Much better then old t in many ways. But like he says my old T showed me its ok to trust. Anyway with the great support from one of the members here I stuck this out. Also still had the issue of wanting so bad to talk with old T. The support person was able to find his adress for me. Wrote to him and he did reply. My T agreed this was ok. Also had his phone number. Finally oned day called left him a message. He called back said it was ok and I cried during the whole converstaion. Told him how much it hurt when he left etc. Anyway please know that I understand how you feel. I wish I could say something that will make this easier but cannot. It does get easier over time. Also if you find antoher T it is possible to build a relationship again. In a way it was best not to have contact because I think I would of not let go. Hope this makes sense and some kind of support. I again am so so sorry. Thinking of you. Please keep on posting the folks here are great. Also if this new T was ever to leave I do not think I could handle it again. I always have to ask that and have his support that he is not going anywhere.
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