Posted by pegasus on May 22, 2004, at 17:29:36
This week I have to give 7 hours of presentations at a conference in a nearby city (close enough to drive home at night). I usually do a full day workshop (about 5 hours) every year at this conference, but this year our marketing people signed me up for two other half hour talks on two other days. So that's 7 hours of presenting in 3 days. And on the third day we're hosting a reception in the evening, where I'm expected to schmooze.
I'm an introvert, and I'm really stressed out about this. I know I can do it. I've done it before (well not this much, but close). But it's going to be a hard week for me. No one at work recognizes that. I want to say: "Hey, I'm an introvert, and this stuff is hard for me! Don't I get extra points for that?"
And this isn't even my highest work priority right now. I have this other big project that I'm trying to stay on top of in between.
I don't have a therapist at the moment. I keep thinking about my old therapist who moved away last year, and wishing I could talk to him. I don't have anyone here to really talk about this with. My husband is being supportive, but also very busy, and he's resenting having to do all the dishes etc. last week (and probably this one too).
Plus I have a cold. And my depression is back. I feel maxed out. I'm trying so hard not to SI, but today I relapsed into some old eating disorder stuff that I thought was long behind me.
I just need to tell all this to someone. Sorry if I won't be babbling much this week. I'm just trying to hang on and do what I have to do well, and drag myself through everything else.
pegasus
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