I talked about my crush on the group member

Posted by tabitha on April 27, 2004, at 23:40:05

Just as I expected, it was incredibly uncomfortable, and afterward everyone told me how great it was that I shared all that, but it still didn't feel very good. I guess it's a relief not to be having reactions to this guy that I can't share.
I'm terrible at hiding things anyway. I'll end up crying even if I try not to talk about something I don't want to talk about, and then I'm so embarrassed to be crying over something people don't understand that I just end up telling them what's going on. So it felt like I had no choice but to talk about it, not like being brave at all.
Now that I've told them this, I guess I should tell them how I felt about telling, and how I felt about what they said. It's endless. Once you get it all out in the open, then what? Then there's more stuff, then you get that out, etc etc. This is grownup relating? Talk about your feelings, don't act them out. I want to dump on my therapist a little for 'making' me do this. I guess my childish part wanted to hang onto the fantasy, and keep hoping for fulfillment. This grownup stuff.. I don't know yet. I just don't know.

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I talked about my crush on the group member tabitha 4/27/04
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