Posted by Penny on October 17, 2003, at 8:14:08
In reply to Re: frustrating therapy session » Penny, posted by fallsfall on October 17, 2003, at 6:26:47
Well, I'm ashamed to say that I didn't deal with it directly. And it was probably fairly obvious that I didn't want to be there. So, the first part of the session I spent just talking about 'stuff' - taking the GRE in November, grad school, etc. Then I kind of stopped talking. I couldn't even look at her. And she sat patiently, just waiting. And I would say something small. Nothing deep. And finally I said, "And I'm sure you are probably tired of hearing me say how I can't do this and I can't do that." And she said, "Not tired - concerned that you feel this way, but I'm not tired of listening to you talk about it." Which is what I needed her to say. And we talked some about Dr. Phil's "If it's not working for you, change it!" theory and her comment was that she feels like he's never known depression, probably never experienced a major loss in his life, just doesn't know what it's like when things are rough - that he seems too superficial. And I agreed.
So, I didn't bring up the fact that I was upset after Tuesday's session, but I did bring up (in a round-about way) some of the issues (the 'just do it' philosophy, the fear that she is tired of hearing me complain) and her responses to those things were what I needed them to be. So I feel a little better.
But, my mood is still dropping and I see my pdoc tonight and I'm dreading it b/c I know he's going to want to start me on something else, and I don't really want to take anything b/c nothing really works. But that's another subject...
P
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