Posted by Pfinstegg on May 21, 2003, at 21:59:49
In reply to Re: What Do You Do With Tranference Crunches? » Pfinstegg, posted by noa on May 21, 2003, at 18:50:47
Noa - I love your posts because they are so articulate and honest. You have stated so clearly how complex these pre-verbal, primitive feelings really are- not only the rage, but the feeling that one is very destructive- to the therapist as well as others. That's so hard to face and deal with- I have the same feelings that you do.
I, too, often feel that words can barely express these feelings. Sometimes he talks more about what my body is expressing, and because he's a psychoanalyst, I have a choice of lying down on the couch, sitting in one of the chairs, or even on the floor. I can walk around if I need to. Sometimes, it helps more to let my body express these feelings, by trembling or curling up, and he is the one who puts words to the feelings. Then there are other times when these primitive feelings have quieted down, and I am able to work with him in a more adult manner. It's the earliest stuff that is the hardest, though, isn't it?
I do feel fortunate about my therapist; it sounds like you've got an excellent one, too. And I do agree- it's such a support to be able to come here and find other people who are going through the same harrowing, extraordinary experiences. There's no way I could express any of this to a friend, or even my husband, except in a very general way.
Pfinstegg
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