Posted by Krissy P on March 12, 2003, at 22:05:11
Hi all, I really don't mean to whine, I think I am cycling. From talking to most of you, does it seem to any of you as if I am cycling? I know I am not the center of this board! I have been in a pretty good mood, but for the past 2 days I have gone up and down-severe. I would be so grateful if ANYONE could just hear me, offer me any kind of wisdom they have on this. I was diagnosed in 1997, as a rapid cycler. I get in these moods where I can't just snap out of it-I just can't and it gets me in a really bad spot. As far as the Lamictal, I feel I am bugging some with my posts, and I'm sorry if you feel that way. I still have a bad headache-even after taking Maxalt today-prescribed to me for PRN migraines. I didn't sleep well last night and had dreams about rats!
I have support-but it has ran out-and I do not like letting my family see when I get in these moods. They already know about my meds, etc. Please, please, I am not desparate-I guess I just want to be heard. I have had a good time this week-went out with 2 friends, saw a movie, and finished my college term-so why am I depressed? I know-no one can answer that-can anyone share anything they think might help me??
I am really not doing good, but as some of you can see, my posts this week may have displayed otherwise-that's why I'm asking about rapid cycling.
I am depressed because my friend is planning her wedding, most of my friends have kids, and here I sit-wondering what or where I have gone wrong in that I'm 32, not married, or have kids. Maybe I am just ungrateful? I don't think that is the case at all. Please don't get me wrong-I am really happy for my friend in getting married-it just brings up such painful feelings for me-painful.
I HATE this sooooooooooooooooooo very much.
Thanks for letting me bitch:-(
I never mean to-I'm just reaching out.............I'm not going to beg, I just hope to hear back from someone who I hopes understands this and can help.
poster:Krissy P
thread:208585
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20030310/msgs/208585.html