Posted by lorelai on January 20, 2003, at 22:56:21
In reply to Re: Disassociative Disorder/Alter Egos » Lorelai, posted by rachdh on January 13, 2003, at 23:55:05
Rachel,
Sorry. I haven't posted in some time. Have been depressed, have pretty much stopped seeing my therapist and I'm just really tired of thinking. I appreciate your comments and just wanted to thank you for taking the time to post. Btw, Effexor did horrible things to me. I've heard it works wonders for some people, but for me it was a nightmare. Not feeling right lately and should probably see my therapist. Thanks for the offer of support groups. I'm feeling a little too withdrawn for that sort of thing right now. But just wanted to thank you.
~Lorelai
> Hi Lorelai :)
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> this is my first time posting here as I was looking for a better med the effexor which is playing havoc with my body and mind.
> I'm a system ( DID ) .... the body is nearly 38 years old yet I am a 17 year old protector and always will be. We were diagnosed five years ago after a lifetime of misdiagnosis. That is so typical .... from trying to pin schizophrenia on us to you name it. The first suicide attempt was at the age of 13, I believe. If you can establish co-consciousness with Alice it would take a lot of your fear away and you will very likely meet other people inside your system ( I'm sorry, I detest the world 'alter' because I don't see myself as such ). We are all people :)
> There is a very vast range of being dissociative and if you would like me to give you some sites or supportgroups, just holler. If you want to know anything at all, I am very willing to be as honest as forthcoming as I know how. I know how confusing it can be as I have watched our host go through all these emotions. I don't know if this post has been of any help to you but if you want to continue talking about it ... please feel free to do so. Including the switching etc and how to establish a working relationship on a conscious level with your other people and how they might feel and their fears or apprehensions over an outside partner that the body has.
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> > Please, is there anyone else out there who has a similar experience? I have an alter ego who steps in and handles problems for me. She's done so for years and since for me, she's been a lifesaver, I've never told anyone about her before. Just figured it was okay since I was aware of her and she's only been a positive in my life. I don't consider myself to have multiple personalities because of my awareness of Alice. I mean, aren't multiples unaware of their different personalities? This only got confusing for me when I told other people. Before then, I was fine with it. Anyway, I finally mentioned my alter, half-jokingly, to my fiance, who insisted I tell my pdoc (I'm in therapy for my erratic behaviors and have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder). So I'm just starting to open up to my pdoc and tell her about my alter (my alter's been with me since age 17--I'm 43). To make a long story short, the pdoc told me I'm "very good at disassociating," have been through a lot of trauma and since she's inexperienced with this type of thing, she's referred me to another pdoc--*sigh*. I feel very alone here and to tell you the truth, I find myself wishing I hadn't mentioned this to her. I was really starting to trust her and feel close to her and now (just today) she gives me this news. I'm hoping there's at least ONE person out there who knows what I'm talking about! I don't FEEL insane. I just sometimes can't handle situations and Alice will calmly step up to the plate, tell me, "Take a break, Lorelai," and I don't have to worry. Thanks for any replies. If I've posted this to the wrong board, I apologize in advance.
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