Posted by malthus on September 28, 2004, at 20:52:44
I think I have recently alienated a friend. He was a cherished part of my life. Due to some medication adjustments this past weekend I wasn't myself and became very insecure and felt abandoned. I know now that I wasn't abandoned at the time. But now our communication has become almost argumentative, something I never thought would happen. I think he is angry with me for something I did when I just wasn't myself. I feel it's something I can never take back. I'm so sad about us. And to add insult to injury there is someone that I am almost certain is ecstatic about the undoing of my communication with him. I realize that I caused this to happen and that is the worst part of my grief. I am also grieving for having this stupid mental illness which causes me to cut and run the moment I don't feel accepted. It is very difficult to lose a friend and I will always wonder if he feels the same.
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thread:396555
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