Posted by hyperfocus on October 3, 2010, at 23:19:50
In reply to how to get out, posted by medamorphosis on October 1, 2010, at 15:05:49
I have AvPD and major depression too and yes, hell would a succinct description of this affliction. Can't stand to be with people. Can't stand to be by yourself. It's painful just to live or breathe or think. Many, many times life seems pointless and death seems like a blessing.
Only two things I can tell you are that a. There IS a reason you're going through this, even though you don't know what it is, and b. Why not roll the dice and say a prayer? What have you got to lose? Be rational - if you've tried medicine and psychology then what have you not tried? I found Psalms 25, 23 and 10 to be consoling. I also liked reading the Book of Job. Start from there and see where it goes. If it makes you feel better then what's the harm? No contract required, pay only for what you use.
Also keep in mind that God, if He exists, is not just a consoler, but also a redeemer and avenger. If you believed you have unfairly had things taken from you, you might be surprised at what you get back. If you believe you tried to be righteous and people have wronged you unjustly, you might be surprised at how their lives turned out. The truth can and will set you free.
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