Posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 12:45:45
(well, at least I am trying to tell myself that), but what I am doing is!!
I ate everything and anything that I could possibly lay my hands on this last weekend and half the time I was not hungry. Even worse, I knew all the triggers that were making me want to eat and that didn't make an ounce of difference.
I keep a food diary, for what it is worth. I just don't bother to write in when I do binge.
After a really healthy food day - I have just devoured, greedily, as if I have never eaten in my life, a whole bag of potato chips.
I tell myself it is wrong. I tell myself it isn't necessary. I tell myself I am not hungry. I tell myself to just do something else until the desire to binge is gone. I tell myself about all the fruit and fresh veg I have just bought. And no matter what I tell myself, I reach for the junk food and start stuffing my face.
I am not pathetic - I am not disgusting. But my behaviour is. Or am I just totally naive.
I'll just raise my glass of wine to my stomach. It seems to be quite happy resting on my ample thighs!
Please forgive my self pity - I have nowhere else to share it.
Sabrina
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