Posted by rainbutterfly on October 14, 2006, at 3:08:14
In reply to huh? not following your post....pls clarify? (nm) » rainbutterfly, posted by zenhussy on October 13, 2006, at 0:54:17
In your "welcome" post to me here, you mentioned something like "understandable that honesty would be of importance as it has been an issue before". I did a quick search for the post in question but haven't found it, so sorry for incorrect wording. You have mentioned honesty before to me though... although not directly, if I recall correctly. My post to you was saying that honesty is also important to me. I have posted elsewhere re. the deceit in my childhood which was very damaging to me. I will not say I have never told any lie or exaggerated in all my time on line. If I have done so, 99 percent of the (few) issues I have altered slightly would be for privacy reasons. The issue I think you were referring to was confusion on my part. Also being more depressed, scared, hurt and triggered, and generally confused than I had realised.
Around that time, I discovered a major lie from two online people who I had believed were two of my closest online friends. They had been deceiving me, and completely aware of that fact (if they were not aware of their deception I totally do not understand why) for many many months. This triggered me, and made me "regress" more than I knew at the time. As an aside, as I might have mentioned before, my former T did talk to "L" in session and he believed she was real. The counsellor I saw after this T said that "regression is essential for therapy". I did not trust her enough to show the "L" part of me to her at all though. Or perhaps more accurately, my defenses were very high at that time, and I was not triggered in sessions to any great extent.
I maintain that honesty is important to me. So is sincerity, which to me is very close to honesty. I hope this clarifies.
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