Posted by Larry Hoover on May 15, 2004, at 8:54:34
In reply to The ump's a bum! » Larry Hoover, posted by finelinebob on May 14, 2004, at 16:46:32
> Pardon me for butting in
I don't see any butting in going on.
> I **am** saying it because people here that I **do** know have jumped in, saying how valuable you are to the community. If your anger pushes you to leave Babbleland, I hope that sometime soon you can step back from it find some perspective for it, and come back ready to give us more of who you are.
Anger is my secondary emotional response. The primary response is hurt. I don't let anyone question my emotions. Even me.
I'd like to argue that it's irrelevant whether I'm a contributor to the community or not. Logically, I could make that case, but emotionally, it's clearly a factor. In fact, it was my sense of being valued that made the emotional response to being unfairly treated (I have not found a way to any other conclusion) very large indeed.
It has taken me four months, almost, to even be able to talk about what happened in a rational way. I perceive the triple block as an act of violence, excessive and inappropriate. I'm not going to reiterate my arguments for that here.
Your umpire analogy is apt, but only to a point. An umpire rules instantly, but only on things he sees. The home plate umpire goes to e.g. the third plate umpire to rule on whether a batter swung or not. There is a delegation of jurisdiction.
Our "umpire" is often missing in action. Gone for days at a time, and in his place, he has delegates with insufficient knowledge (re: block history, for example) and power. (Aside to Dinah: You do a wonderful and perhaps too thankless job, sweetheart. This is not a criticism of you.)
With respect to coming back or not, I was moving closer to doing so, but only until I saw yet another example of gross inconsistency between what He says and what He does.
I don't care if I'm right, or not. I'm telling you what it's like to be me. I feel unprotected by Bob, when people take character shots at me, and go unpunished. Maybe I'm a little biased about the me part. Whatever. I feel persecuted by Bob, as I feel that I am held to a different standard than other posters are and have been.