Posted by brynb on November 30, 2014, at 10:54:51
In reply to Re: What If We're Wrong About Depression? » Hugh, posted by SLS on November 30, 2014, at 0:40:48
I'm hopping on this thread half-awake, but I'm looking at Scott's formula (predisposition + chronic stress + variable?) and wonder how big a role conditioning, maybe OCD, playing the same loop in our conditioned heads over and over can be re-conditioned or un-conconditioned.
I've been in a pretty bad place for a while now (off/on/OFF) and spoke to a Buddhist friend who I meditated with yesterday and he kinda kicked the NLP into me, if that makes any sense to anyone at all. "I'm fine." "I'm great." "How are You?" "I'm not special, not different." Etc...
I still don't have a diagnosis, though technically (for disability purposes) I've never had a definitive diagnosis--I've been MDD w/ GAD, possibly Bi2 or Soft Bipolar, and here and there I've even heard MDD with Borderline Personality Disorder kicked in the mix (statistically I pray that's not it).
I'm in a tenuous place right now. I don't want to take additional meds, but I need to right now to get through a rough spot. I'm on 400mg Tramadol (hits the glutamate receptors and apparently turns on a good/the "right" switch for me), 20mg Lexapro, 8mg Ativan and now 75mg Seroquel. Seroquel has really been taking "the edge" off for me.
As far as feeling Bipolar or "manic," my mania--if we must call it that--is simultaneous with my depression more often than not. It's more hyper activity/fast talk/pacing, and is often triggered by meds (Neurontin, painkillers, too high a dose of Tramadol, etc.).
I'm a bit foggy this morning, but Hugh, your post got me thinking (really on how to change myself and my approach to depression) and Scott, what the proper storm or breeding ground is--both of which make me believe, that albeit through the most arduous efforts, can we potentially rewire ourselves for the better? Am I wrong--is it the Seroquel speaking?
-b
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