Posted by theconfusedone on January 7, 2014, at 9:55:28
In reply to Re: Suicidal!!, posted by manic666 on May 30, 2010, at 3:45:09
> you are doing the classic to many med changes//be it alchol, shrink meds, doc meds. over the counter meds/// i was that man //still can be, its easy to panic in the middle of panic//open you mouth a stick anything in//a little brandy ooooooopps its now a bottle///2 ativan ooooopps it now 12//i will set meself a limit i will be cool at that//oooooooooopps im over the limit what now///down im afraid is the only place to go before getting better//self medication is for short term//so people can go on a bender for a week an come out the right side ..very rare im afraid// you need help bad with this one but you will suffer ther is no other way//if you could be sedated say in hospital an monitored in withdralw over a time that would be cool //but the chances of that treatment are very slim//your cast as a self medicator so its you fault no matter how ill you are//its a bummer//unless you take that onboard an admit it//the help wont come/its down to you to level at what you can achieve//its not easy ,but i did it....
Guess what??? after all this time I'm back, went to the depths of hell and lost everything I ever owned.. Marriage , house and belongings all because I chose not to read Manics post and labeled him another '12 step freak'.
My addiction turned me into an animal and ravished away at my soul, I nearly died several times, I ended up doing things I would never even dream of committing in sobriety...I found myself in holding cells in psychiatric hospitals on 24hr watch...
Today I am clean 2 years and it's my 45th birthday... I spent 1.5 years in total in residential care.. I found the answer to all my problems... yes you guessed it AA's 12 steps of recovery... No more anxiety, no more meds, no more anger or frustration, no more sleepless nights...
This is just my story from an addicts point of view and I will never assume for one minute that all of you on here are the same but I am sure there is one or two of you who may be able to relate to my past posts...
God bless you all and I hope you find peace of mind like I have...
'The not so confused one anymore'
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