Posted by Lamdage22 on August 3, 2013, at 6:14:43
So it seems Parnate is really bad for me. It makes me super jumpy and on edge.
Can you see how much it pisses me off, that there is nothing consistent in my life? Take that medicine, feel like that.. have that diagnosis. Then it changes to something completely different?
Then this diagnosis, those meds..
I need all this to come to an end. Seriously.
I dont know how much more i can take. I feel like some serious sh*t, im in jail without being in jail.Some therapists are crazy house, too. One told me basically to leave society. I dont trust him anymore. I dont really trust in alot of things anymore at all. Except my father, that i had attacked while whatever Mental Illness it was that this suuper duper idea to take Nardil gave me. Im not diagnosing myself anymore here. Its bad enough that other people diagnose me with temporary illnesses. Theres nothing consistent. Thats why i just want to run away.
How about i just got a humongous crack from my parents divorce and i proceeded into a really bad vicious circle after that, that includes but is not limited to mental illnesses? That would be something to hold onto, because it is permanently true.
CAN SOMEBODY PRESS THE NORMAL BUTTON? Id be really thankful. Nardil did alot of things, but it sure as hell wasnt anything that fixed me.
How do you want to fix a crack in the head like i have that clearly stems from divorce?
I just suffer from that. All the time and whatever Psychiatry currently thinks my Diagnosis is. Only consitent thing.
I would do anything in the world to get out of this vicious circle, i just dont know how and im not sure who is going to give me the ultimate answer.
Schizo-affective
Seasonal-Affective
Social Anxiety
some PTSD
some Inattentive ADS
300 Seroquel, 1200 Acetylcystein
40-50 mg Parnate
Contemplated: Prazosin for nighmaires
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