Posted by brynb on June 27, 2013, at 11:09:23
In reply to Re: Nardil, finally? » brynb, posted by SLS on June 27, 2013, at 7:56:32
> > I was doing well after a trial of ketamine and TMS. I seemed to be ok
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> Can you describe what it was like for you to be "ok"? What, if anything, did you feel that you were missing that you should want to try Nardil?
>Hi Scott-
I was basically functioning; able to get up daily and talk with my family, go out for a quick walk. And I wasn't having panic attacks or trouble sleeping. I was basically just getting by and getting along with my family. That said, I wasn't being social or going out, or working. I stopped socializing about 2 years ago, and haven't been able to work in over a year (and last I worked it was only part-time). So, my existence was better than "normal" or being depressed, but it wasn't good. I've gotten chronically worse as I've gotten older.
> I'm sure you know that you can't combine Nardil with either
Lexapro or tramadol.
>Yes, I do know, thanks :).
> > Last week, I o'd on a bunch of pills, and I don't know if it was self sabotage, a half-hearted attempt to kill myself or a dumb attempt to feel different, but it put me in a mega tailspin and I'm struggling again.
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> No blame. No guilt. No judgment.
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I appreciate that very much, but I can't stop whipping and judging myself over this. I just can't.> Perhaps you can learn from this. You don't necessarily have to repeat this behavior. I think it would help to be more certain as to what motivated you to do this, though.
>That's perhaps why I might see a therapist. I saw someone in the past but found her pretty useless; I'm hoping I can make the right connection with a good Tx and connect the dots.
> > an upcoming birthday had me in the dumps but I just can't justify my actions
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> Lost time, advancing age, and a history of lack of reward and fulfillment is depressing. How can one not be depressed when he must pass time in the absence of enjoyment? Where is the joy?
>Again, thanks for understanding. I so appreciate it. It seems silly at almost 40 to complain about age and birthdays, but it's a searing reminder of how defeated I feel.
> Nardil is probably a better choice than Parnate when anhedonia is present along social anxiety or lack of sociability.
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> > I'm my own worst enemy
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> Join the club.
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> - ScottThanks, Scott. I appreciate your words of support. I'm feeling super lonely and defeated. I struggle with how difficult it feels just to get by on a daily basis--I really thought I was coasting by and had become somewhat content with that as it's better than where I am again.
-b
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