Posted by alchemy on December 10, 2012, at 0:37:56
Ive come close to applying for disability at work. It can be so hard to sit there, to think, to do anything. And then on friday i received a warning for my performance and days off. So i figured its time.
Then a friend reminded me how bad i get when i dont have work to occupy some of my time. Having no motivation and watching the clock isnt the answer. There really isnt one.
Maybe for the moment i should apply for short term disability because ive already been fired from my last 2 jobs. But i go coo-coo in a different way when im not working. what if i take a month, 2, or 3 off and come back to the same thing.
And unfortunately it would not be acting as a period to "seek treatment" and get well. My pdoc said that i've basically finished the med game. There is nothing else to play. I am trying to find a new one, which may not amt to much.
Advice? I go back and forth on the lesser of the two evils, but i may end up getting fired anyway.
I suffer through work, come home and get thru the nite. Please dont tell me i need to find something i like to do. I want to want something to do! And when even people from a psych community tell me that, i feel like even more of a loser.
Thanks.
poster:alchemy
thread:1032741
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20121130/msgs/1032741.html