Posted by ChicagoKat on December 10, 2012, at 16:04:07
In reply to miserable at work vs miserable on disability, posted by alchemy on December 10, 2012, at 0:37:56
oh my dear, dear friend. what a hard choice you have to make. I can tell you what I think you should do, but if I do, remember it is YOUR choice and only you know deep in your heart what the right choice is.
If it were me, I'd go the disability route hands down. and you say it wouldn't be to work on your health, especially after that dingbat pdoc you had has actually make you feel worse. I swear he has. You ABSOLUTELY need to focus on finding a new and much better pdoc. there are always different solutions, as I found out when I posted my feelings that I had given up and then woke this morning to find out all kinds of different meds and combos had been suggested. I now have more hope again. I cannot state this strongly enough, so please forgive the caps, YOU FINDING A NEW, CARING, VERY KNOWLEDGEABLE PDOC WHO IS USED TO WORKING WITH TREATMENT RESISTANT PATIENTS ABSOLUTELY *IS* TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF AND IS AN ACT THAT PROVES YOU ARE TRYING TO BEAT THIS DISEASE. Take time off, make that the focus of your life, and work as hard as your depression will let you to work and work and work until you find a gem of a pdoc. Literally shop for one. It really makes ALL the difference in the world. And be sure to post here too. Try what I did, tell everyone every single med you've ever been on. You'll be surprised just as I was to see all the recommendations you get. Lastly, I know you are worried you are gonna go nuts without doing anything all day. I say make finding an awesome pdoc, and a great therapist too, your WORK. Take in just how very important it is, and make it your mission to find that right doc. To really find a good one often takes months or years. But if you have time off, and can focus all the extra time on getting a better doc, you should find one even sooner. L, I am very serious about this. It is much more important than I think you can imagine.
But, as I said, it is ultimately your decision. but holy crap, I sure wrote a lot about what I think would be best for you to do! Seriously thogh, you know yourself best, and only you can make the decisonion the end. Try to find a very peaceful place and time and let your mind wander, and see which path looks best to you; feel in your gut what makes the most sense to you. OK, the weirdo is done talkin :D
Ive got a really bad disease
Its got me begging on my hands and knees
So take me to emergency
Cause somethin seems to be missing
Somebody take the pain away
Its like an ulcer bleeding in my brain
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