Posted by phidippus on October 31, 2012, at 11:48:46
In reply to Re: med update... » phidippus, posted by b2chica on October 31, 2012, at 7:52:55
>then i know logically that my body will fight to survive no matter what my mind thinks.
This statement is very telling of the condition you are in. I've had the same thought myself many times when I've had endless arguments about the prospect of suicide. Its as if half my brain supplies reasons to do myself in and the other half gives me reasons why I should, couldn't or wouldn't. In the end its all just an endless argument that brings anxiety.
>Then i get scared
It all boils down to fear.
>my brain said "see! she will do just fine without you", then my brain said, NO it wasn't a proper goodbye, you cant try anything yet."
These are the kind of arguments you have with yourself when you have OCD.
>its oscillating thoughts make me sick.
I understand more than you think.
>its a battle between logic and emotion.
You know that you do not want to commit suicide. The thoughts of suicide that you do have are nothing but intrusive and recurrent ideations.
>But i need help.
I'm very glad you shared your inner struggle with me. I know I can help.>great, useless AND jobless
You are never useless.
Eric
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