Posted by Lou Pilder on September 23, 2012, at 17:22:18
In reply to Med-induced blackouts/brain damage?, posted by brynb on September 23, 2012, at 15:10:05
> Has anyone else experienced this? I don't drink (and never really did), but I used to abuse a lot of pills, in particular, benzos.
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> Nowadays (and for a while), I take my meds as prescribed. I don't use abusable meds anymore, and I never use illegal substances (it's been years). As needed, I'll use benzos, but not often. When I used a lot of pills in the past, I would have blackouts--much like, if not the same as, what alcoholics so often have--and not remember full days and moments at a time. It felt like amnesia. This happened to me on Z drugs, and Gabapentin, too, which I stopped taking earlier this year as it was making me manic.
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> I've been in a funk the past week and have been physically ill (with bronchitis and a sinus infection, so I'm on antibiotics). I made the mistake a few nights ago of taking a painkiller (90 mg of oxycodone--a lot for someone who is small and not used to it), but I wasn't feeling well, was down and in my apartment feeling like I needed to "check-out". It made me very high, manic and I blacked out. I can't remember that day or night at all. I crashed, slept and fell into a worse depression almost immediately. Now I feel anxious and guilty, slow and out of it.
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> Is this indicative of anything, such as brain damage? I'm worried. I must stress, a friend gave me the pills, and it was just this one night, an isolated incident as I very rarely (if ever) take anything that isn't prescribed. I haven't experienced this since Neurontin (and before that, it was a while as I haven't abused meds in years). I understand how alcohol affects the GABA receptors, and how these drugs work in a related way. I obviously know to avoid ANYTHING that isn't prescribed to me at this point, especially as the results are devastating to my state of being. But, really? From 3 pills as an isolated incident? What's going on here?
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> Feedback?
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> Thanks.b,
You wrote,[...abuse a lot of pills..benzos...blackouts...Z drugs..and gabapentin...in a funk...oxycodone...I needed to "check out"...I blacked out...fell into a worse depression...brain damage?...What's going on here?...].
I know what's going on here and of a way for you to come out of the darkness of depression and into a marvelous light. This light came to David and Solomon and Moses and Isaiah and others that reveals a way to overcome darkness by having a Sun that heals by shining its stripes upon those that are in a condition like yours, asking, what is going on, as being lost to find their way out of the darkness of depression. And it has been revealed to me that all we like (redacted by respondent).
Now many here already know that I have been writing here about a Great Gulf that separates two kingdoms. The two kingdoms are the kingdom of the mind of flesh, or the natural man, or carnal mind, and the spiritual kingdom of the spiritual mind. And I have been attempting to show the way to passover the Great gulf and leave the carnal mind behind and enter a new realm where there is peace and joy and all things are new. Gone is depression and fear. Gone are all tears. Gone are addiction and pain. Gone is death. And it can be here on earth like it is in that kingdom, a place in your heart called paradise. I tell you today, you could be in paradise.
The prophet Danial wrote of this kingdom. Abraham went to this kingdom. And Abraham was visited by one that I know. And He gave me the same prescription to the keys to the kingdom of peace and joy and life.
You see, the people in the paradise kingdom (redacted by respondent) have overcome. They are kings, not slaves. They get up every morning with a smile on their face and show the world all the love in their heart. They are kings and priests after the order of the Rider on the white horse whose name has been revealed to me as Melvin Chizedek.
Now Abraham met this person and believed him and followed him into the spiritual kingdom. And this person is here today to follow into the kingdom of life, out of the kingdom of death.
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