Posted by b2chica on September 13, 2012, at 14:25:04
In reply to Re: think major mixed episode, posted by b2chica on September 13, 2012, at 9:11:31
only 5 hours later than when i wrote the last response and mood miles away.
i feel a sensation of numb and disconnected from my environment. super tired. gray, sad.
already hopeless and feel like pdoc agrees.
not suicidal and hope i dont get there because if anywhere as bad as last night, i will surely succeed. or be committed.
if i were single or without kids this would be one of those times i'd check myself into the hospital.
but i'mnot at risk for suicide right now so they prob wouldn't admit me anyway...h*ll even the hospital doenst want me.
feeling like total loser.
like radiohead song...the drugs dont work
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."