Posted by b2chica on September 12, 2012, at 14:46:59
had another episode this morning. ready to leave work.
major shaking and internal...violence. had raged energy. skipped noon adderall, took 600mg gabapentin and .5 mg xanax. feeling better now.
but still 'out of sorts'.
cant focus on any one thing for longer than 30sec to min.
jumping from project to project which would ideally be good if i could accomplish any one thing on any of the projects.
i'm tired of med trials and am quite disheartened that my 'go to drug' isn't working very well.
although i was taking generic...
damn cant imagine what i'd be like off all this. i mean...crap.
i dont want anything, guess im venting.
but i'm getting exhausted eotionally.
is the drop next?
i thought they said i didnt have BP, i thought psychotic depression? h*ll, who knows right.
need my ipod today.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."