Posted by poser938 on February 16, 2012, at 18:58:11
In reply to Re: done with 2 1/2 weeks of rTMS (24 treatments), posted by SLS on February 16, 2012, at 16:45:57
it is just that medication doesnt mix well with my brain. it is hard for doctors to believe and understand me that when a med has an effect on my brain, i cant really go back.
like when an ssri has made me feel numb, it sticks with me. my brain is a complete mess because of this. this is so different from many others who take medication that doctors and myself are just at a loss for what to do.
i used to be very normal but just let my emotions get to me. but now my brain is completely dysfunctional. it's just so complicated and scary for me.
taking my first antidepressant, cymbalta and adderall, was the worst decision in my life back in 2005. i've been on pysychobabble for about a year now, and someone on here, i cant remember exactly who, but they told me they dont believe mme about meds messing with me long term. and im not sure anyone really does except for my mom.but like i said, my next step is to try getting into a ketamine drug trial, and hope that it can have an effect of actually resetting my brain back to normal functioning like it says in literature about it.
my genes did not make me like this, and no traumatizing events made me like this. it was strictly the meds i have taken, and then more meds to try and fix what meds i 1st took did to me.i thought this site was interesting though:
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