Posted by Alas on November 17, 2011, at 19:06:11
So...I have been on psychiatric meds for a couple of years now after trying the homeopathic route, have been admitted to hospital and spent three weeks in a psychiatric clinic (so have had various psychiatrists) yet I don't know what I am being medicated for.
I am currently on Lamictin (don't know wether it's for Bi polar or epilepsy or who knows what)and Seroquel
Last night I spents hours crying in terror after both audio and visual hallusinations- interspersed between heavy wing beating type noises in my head which I have been experiencing over the past few days.
Tonight/this morning the hallucinations are a lot milder but paranoia has taken their place. I am currently lying frozen in bed, it is now 2:45AM and I have just painted my nails as nail polish was all I could reach without getting out of bed- I cannot sleep as I am afraid to close my eyes (I came to bed at about 10PM). My shoulders are hunched in order to protect my neck from what ever I feel is behind me. I feel like I am in danger from something for writing this but am dealing with it as I have calmed down a little. Aside, I am also battling with words lately, like the words I want have no meaning and I can barely spell.
I have recently been taken off my antidepressants(CymGen) and had my dosages of Lamictin changed from 100mg twice a day to 250mg in the morning and my 50mg of seroquel has been increased to 300mg. Could this simply be side effects and/or withdrawl?In the past I have been troubled by delusions (believing my parents had been swapped and were trying to kill me for a week. I would not let them anywhere near me, which was difficult as I lived with them and relied on them for transport!),the rare hallucination, OCD and anxiety sometimes leading to convulsions and severe twitching etc. I have always had very vivid dreams, mostly nighmares and suffered from night parralasys when I was younger.
I was looking at photos on my phone earlier and had to stop because I was scared I would see someone or something else in them.
The more I tell myself that my what I am afraid of right now is not real, the worse my fear gets.
Aside from what is going on tonight I just want to know what is wrong or what I am actualy being treated for. Why can NO BODY tell me this...?!
poster:Alas
thread:1002926
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