Posted by JohnLA on November 13, 2011, at 15:20:36
In reply to I'm losing all hope...so tired of fighting in vain, posted by ihatedrugs on November 10, 2011, at 10:45:03
just wanted to add my support. i'm new here too. i'm in my very first ever severe depression and like you said, i would not wish this on my worst enemy...
another reason i'm replying is that i am/was a highschool teacher as well. not only do we have that in common, but i taught ap art history (though i am not an artist), film history and music history. all to 12th graders at a great school. i miss it/them so very much. i am on medical leave. i'm not sure i would recommend that. my experience with not working and being severely depressed has been extremely difficult. having no place to be for the first time in 26 years just adds to my depression and ruminating. if at all possible, stay in that classroom that i can tell you love so much. maybe go part-time if you can. just a suggestion.
i'm at 20 months of this most disgusting condition. i'm not sure how much more i can take. i, too, have tried several meds and also did a round of ect that failed.
i agree that it is so very hard when people tell you it will get better when that's the last thing you feel or believe. it must be true though because so many say they have felt better after being so deep in the pit. the majority make it out. the #'s are in our favor. (i'm writing these words to remind myself as well.)
psychobabble is a catch-22 in my opinion; great support/info, but made-up mostly of the minority of those who are treatment resistant in regards to their depression. still! the vast majority of the posters are sincerely hopeful that they will get better. i find that inspiring.
i'm curious as to what you teach? and, who are your favorite artist?
hoping you start getting some peace.
john
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