Posted by ihatedrugs on November 12, 2011, at 0:05:01
In reply to Re: I'm losing all hope...so tired of fighting in vain, posted by Deneb on November 11, 2011, at 22:30:07
Oh boy, I should show my husband your post then tell him I'm moving to Paris. :) I've actually always loved the idea of volunteering. I am a high school teacher and as daunting as some people may find this profession, it is actually pretty rewarding. I've taken a two month medical leave to try to figure a new med regimen. I'm also an artist, however I don't have the time to work on my art when I teach. So in a sense, I am at a crossroads because as much as I love teaching and my students, I also want to go back to making art. But for now, I just want to feel well. I am pretty fortunate (sans this evil disease) as I truly love my husband as he loves me and supports me unconditionally. I think this is why I get so frustrated because I have never been able to find one reason to feel this sad and as much as I keep telling myself that I have to accept my condition for what it is -an illness- I find myself resisting and fighting this notion. My husband tells me that I should seek counseling not so much to alleviate the depression but to learn to accept it as a life long condition that will come and go. If it would only just leave for good.
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