Posted by bleauberry on August 31, 2011, at 5:09:02
In reply to what keeps you alive?, posted by g_g_g_unit on August 30, 2011, at 8:51:01
Good question. What keeps me alive?
Some days I wonder how I stayed alive.
I think it has mostly to do with hope. Without hope, nothing else exists.
For me that hope comes from faith in the man spoken of in the Bible, Jesus. As God gave His people daily manna to eat, and it was rationed out daily, I also believe He does the same with hope and strength. I have felt it enough times to not doubt it.
The suffering is still there despite renewed hope. But at least the hope is the ingredient that keeps me alive. I remember back in my suicidal days, ambulance days, psych ward days, and ECT....the one thing missing in all those times was....hope. The only place I found it was in Jesus. Of course that was hard because I couldn't see Him or touch Him. Sort of like magnetism, electricity, heat, cell phone waves, ultraviolet waves.....we cannot sense that stuff is in the air, but it is. Same with the spiritual world. And that's why it is called faith. Jesus gives me hope. Prior to that all of my hope had been in the meds themselves, almost as if they were the Gods of my life. And as they failed one after another, no wonder there wasn't any hope They were the wrong Gods.
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