Posted by policebox on July 20, 2011, at 2:59:54
In reply to Re: Atypical depression - medication no longer helping » floatingbridge, posted by Phillipa on July 19, 2011, at 19:54:09
I apologize in advance if this reply will sound self-righteous. It's especially frustrating for me because I do not have a history of any type of drug dependence, abuse, nor any addictive traits.
I've never taken stimulants. I've never taken any illegal drugs, including marijuana. I rarely drink and thus have never abused alcohol.
The only thing I have going against me is that I'm asking to be prescribed stimulants at a student health clinic at a university. However, I'm 36 years old and have demonstrated a long-standing pattern (18 years worth) of difficulty with work, school, and interpersonal relationships.
They want to do an ADHD screening, that's fine. They'd also like to do a sleep study, which I agree with. My biggest worry is that none of this is going to begin to be put into motion until September. That's a month into the upcoming semester at school. If I don't finish the classes I sign up for this semester, I will be barred from getting financial aid forever. So, this is a "make it or break it" semester for me, as far as academia is concerned. And at this point, I don't see how I'm going to make it through when I'm completely fatigued, exhausted, and anxious every day.
I know I will sound naive for saying this, but even at 36 years of age, I find it hard to believe we live in a world where effective treatments are withheld from responsible adults; treatments which are likely to make the difference in my life between me achieving my goals or ending up in the gutter, simply because that's "their policy". It just seems cruel.