Posted by alchemy on July 18, 2011, at 7:57:07
In reply to Re: Update- My experience with ECT, posted by PhoenixGirl on July 14, 2011, at 20:21:02
> Alchemy, did you start ECT? How is it going?
I am actually in the middle of figuring it out, so I haven't started. But even this morning I was wondering if I should start tomorrow.
Someone who has been training me at work asked if I was even interested in my job or planning to leave. She was nice about it, I'm probably just not hiding the fact that I'm barely hanging on.
She also said she plans on even loading my training schedule more - which means there is a huge conflict with ECT memory & work. My dept. has also become so busy that my boss would not be letting me take the time off I need.
So I feel like I'm in a no-win situation, but I need to get off this miserable ride somehow. And when it's been like this my whole life, I'm nearing 40, do I take the jump into the unknown?
After feeling like I am having a nervous breakdown, there is one possibility I thought of. Quit to go to school for fall. Even if it is only a semester I at least would have a reason for another break in my resume. I still don't know what I want to do, but I would just hope that I would feel better to have some kind of motivation. Even if I felt well I still wouldn't really like my job.
I should apply for dissability at the same time - not knowing which way I will turn out. But I don't want to live like I'm just barely hanging on. This sucks.
It's all a gamble. I do know that I will lose some memory & I will feel better for at least a little while. So besides all of my anesthesia fears and my work issue - will maintenance keep me up? That is my big question.
Advise?
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