Posted by andy013 on July 8, 2011, at 22:19:09
Hi, I became depressed last winter and started taking 10mg of citalopram. I took it for 4 months until I started to feel a bit better and then I decided I wanted to come off it.
I weaned down off it slowly but I still felt terrible. I thought that perhaps it was a withdrawl effect and that I would begin to feel like my usual self after a few weeks. After 8 weeks drug-free I still felt depressed.
I decided to try and take the citalopram again. I have now been on 10mg for 4 weeks and I am feeling very depressed (worse than I was off the drug). I have started having impulsive suicidal thoughts and crying (something I didn't do very often even when I was depressed).
Today I woke up and felt very shivery and hot at the same time, like I had a fever. I also feel really light headed and out of it and not healthy at all. I've had diarrhoea as well. I really feel like something is seriously wrong.
I am starting to become more and more worried as it has now been almost 9 months since I became depressed and there is no sign of me getting better. I am really worried that the citalorpam caused a change in my brain that will take much longer than 8 weeks to recover.I have read about people needing to wait 12-18 months after having bad reactions to prozac before they started to feel normal again.
I really don't want to take any more drugs. I have read lots of horror stories on the internet about people becoming more and more crazy the more drugs they tried. I just want to feel normal again without taking any drugs.
I guess I'm just looking for some understanding and maybe someone who has had a similar experience to me and gotten better.
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