Posted by hyperfocus on April 9, 2011, at 0:38:51
In reply to Re: To the depths of despair with Risperdal-SI trigger, posted by B2chica on April 7, 2011, at 8:10:45
> i have experienced this several times. each time i come through it i feel i can never ever go through that again.
Yeah that's one place I really don't want to go again. The images and feelings were just so...apocalyptic...I guess. Like it was the end of the world - my world specifically.
>i feel exhausted, guilty almost ashamed to even be here. but then as time goes by and meds help i pull more out of the depression. i cant say i forget completely, but what i remember changes. it changes from the feelings above to more appreciation, more thankfulness, and less into what others are into (money, success, cars, clothes, etc). so if anything i feel a little more detached from my common man.
I'm exactly the same. Like I was telling jane d and Deneb the other night, I've always had this belief that if I could just have one day - one day of a normal happy life - then it would have been worth it. Like I would wake up and go the library and read for a couple of hours straight, then I'd pickup my girlfriend and kiss her and hear her say she loves me and we'd go to a Strokes concert or a club or something and I wouldn't care that I was a really bad dancer, just so I could have fun with her. If I could get just that for ONE day then I'd be satisfied.
> thats why 'thank God' there is babble. the people here. get it.
> they've been to those depths, survived.
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> ...and Know.
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> we understand. and we are Better for it.
>I've always believed that too. Whether dead or dying or abandoned, PB is still the only place I can find people who understand this stuff.
best wishes to you too b2c.
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